Saturday, November 08, 2008
@4:26 AM
it was tough today.
having to overcome the shock and hurt from yesterday(im still not recovered) and the broken promises as well as the sense of loneliness.
i stayed at home the whole day, too ashamed of my swollen eyes to go anywhere although i wanted to get out for some fresh air. i really wonder, how come things i thought felt so right suddenly went all wrong? its really upsetting. im still hurting very much inside. for the whole day, ive been working hard, hoping to numb my pain by focusing on something else. i could not stop, because whenever i did, all of what happened flooded my brain and it was painful. i ended up bursting in sobs. someone pls take this pain away from me. ive suffered too much, its unbearable. im losing myself to depression.....
i want all this to be over... i sick and tired of being teary-eyed.
