how peacful it is to sit in a park.
early in the morning,
with no one around
just all by yourself
hearing the voices of nature
tingling in your ear

how peaceful would it be,
to sit alone on the beach
no one around to disturb me
starry nights are a bonus
to such a romantic peacful night

all i need is peace
inner peace..
outer peace
all the peace,
please give it to me.

today was a long day, but i sure had a lot fun.

morning was class which ended in the afternoon. the presentation of the script went pretty well. the hilarious part was, i actually popped a RICOLA candy into my mouth, not knowing that we were next, so throughout the whole presentation, i was shifting my sweet from side to side of my mouth.. thank goodness, no one said anything although i knew they saw. haha

in the evening, i went to pick up my "CHANEL" handbag. it was gorgeous. just love it!
then i went to find junbin at his place. he wasnt home yet so i had a little "chit chat" session with his mom. =)
my smiley baby reached home at 6:15pm! =D after a long gruelling week, i manage to see my baby. so happy!

we went to some dim sum place at bendemeer for dinner.. yum yum!
i ate so much for the first time in weeks! =D

on the way home, we were talking about fussy cab drivers etc... haha hilarious replies!


i had fun. =)

school just started and i hadnt got the time to blog since.
oh well, it has definitely been a REALLY busy week.
haha im lucky for not finding a job at the childcare, it will all be too stressful for me.
yup, so much journals to write. and assignments and more ...
tomorrow, we are going to do a script. its about "feelings". we are portraying a childs day or something.. and the feelings inside.. bet its gonna be interesting! haha

alright im too tired.. tmrs gonna be another busy bee day! hah

toodles!

im going for my photoshoot session at 12 30pm. its for some advertorial purpose. yeah. this is going to be so so exciting! (although its not my first time at it.) haha i just cant wait, to get it over and done with and see my face on posters and newsletters and brochures and newspapers etc. yeah i hope so.. =/ im not exactly sure what they are going to use the photos for but its definitely to promote the school.haha RTRC rocks! they have given so much opportunity ever since i came in last year. i am really grateful.with the guidance of the teachers and the way lessons are taught, which includes presentations, i am able to stay more focus during lessons and be confident when i speak. =) i feel more confident as a teacher now..
thank you again RTRC. =)

"come with me to neverland
forget the sad days
that we ever had.
tinkerbell is there,
flying high up in the air.
oh wont it be nice to be like her?
swishing through the snow flakes,
and over the mega lakes.
so happy,
so carefree
about the world."
too bad im not interested.

all i want now is
everything to stay the same
never to change one single thing
or else i may feel a nasty pinch.
bruising my heart so painful it seems
now that all seems bleak,
i just hope without a leak,
that one fine day
wil be us in happy way.

this is really ironic but its true.

"the person you love most, hurts you the most"

yup, i've been through it, and still recovering from it. im not sure if im being overly sensitive but things seem to be different after the incident. the friendster status becomes "single" and he totally removed the "my love" photo album. In addition, the "so in love with that ballet dancer" on his msn nick was deleted and never replaced despite obvious hints.
i dont care whether you think im just being paranoid or overly sensitive, the fact is that it was changed, deliberately. and he somehow doesnt want to replace it. if you were me, afer countless of obvious hints, and he gets it but pretends to be oblivious about it. wont you be hurt? the feeling is similar to that of a im not trying to difficult. those phrases may be just words to you, but to me, it brings joy and a sense of comfort to know that i have someone special. honestly i was really upset when i realized it had been changed... i never thought he would do such a thing.. never once...
so right now, when i visit these sites a sad expression would be pasted over my happy face. oh well.. this just hurts so much...

i wish he cared more than he think he did.


it got me upset,
and i wanted to take revenge
i wanted you to be in my shoes
to know how it all really feels.
but no i wont do that,
cos im not that bad.
in fact i wont do anything
whats the point?
you wont react,
it just seems
like you care, just less.



all the tears of every night
is enough to flood the rivers and ponds.
all the tears ive shed for you
why wont you understand what ive been through?
i am paranoid
i am weird
but everyone has their opinions you should hear
not turn away or give a deaf ear
this goes out to those who hurt,
hang in there
as comfort will appear.

im slowly getting used to all these pain.
its no big deal.

it was tough today.
having to overcome the shock and hurt from yesterday(im still not recovered) and the broken promises as well as the sense of loneliness.

i stayed at home the whole day, too ashamed of my swollen eyes to go anywhere although i wanted to get out for some fresh air. i really wonder, how come things i thought felt so right suddenly went all wrong? its really upsetting. im still hurting very much inside. for the whole day, ive been working hard, hoping to numb my pain by focusing on something else. i could not stop, because whenever i did, all of what happened flooded my brain and it was painful. i ended up bursting in sobs. someone pls take this pain away from me. ive suffered too much, its unbearable. im losing myself to depression.....

i want all this to be over... i sick and tired of being teary-eyed.

i think we should sometimes take a break from our fast-paced lives and reflect on what have we been doing etc.
occasionally, things happened too fast without you realizing and its gone the next moment. when you know that its gone, its too late to want it back and no point crying over it. i hate that kinda feeling, seriously. it feels as if you are stuck in a situation where u are lost and u have nowhere u can go. worst still if you have no one you can count on.
thats my life for you.
i have no one. but im used to it
i need no one. you're free to go if you want. i dont see a point holding you back if you refuse. i hate forcing people, it makes me look bad.

Next, forgiveness.. have you never forgive someone who hurt you REALLY badly, so much so that you wanted to put him/her in your shoes first? well i have,and i also believe in karma. what goes around comes around.but i dont forgive, never will. and i wont forget, never did. cos i make sure you will get twice the pain i got.if you are on my "most hated" list, you will never get out of it. i make sure i thumb you down all your life. you will regret what you have done, and you will carry that guilt into your coffin.

i hate you

i thought you believed in me,
i thought you understood me,
i thought we had it all,
never it seemed to watch it fall.

what ache my heart suffered,
the sudden blows and breaks that happened.

it hurts to see you go,
lost in a flash,
before i know.

how i wish i could turn back time.
then you will still be all mine.
we will make it work together.
avoiding screams and yells and scuffles.

oh i wish i could return,
i regret my actions,
but i guess it too late to U-turn.

there is one more thing which i must say,
and that is i'll never stop loving you,
even till this very day.


good bye my last love and only true love....

yayy i was on The New Paper.
under the Career 2008 section.
the interview session was really tense atfirst but i felt much better as it seemed like a chatting session after all. i was glad it was over and that i did not say anything that would cause the reputation of RTRC to collapse( not like theres anything bad to say anyway.) RTRC is indeed a good learning place for most of us. peaceful enviroment etc. but im not sure if its still peaceful in the evenings when all the part timers come to class. a whole lot of them i tell you. literally every class is full, like 50 over ladies. RTRC is really popular. and im really glad i chose to go to RTRC instead of NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC! my friends in np are still struggling and some are even thinking of dropping out. ha thats because they were enlisted into a course which they had the least of interest. im glad i did not end up like them, having to be in np but doing something i dont like at all is pure torture. =)
i wonder if there will be anymore of such opportunities to shine for the school. mr tui as well as my family will be so proud to have a girlfriend/ daughter/ sister like me. =)

haha no lesson today! (except for the one in the evening)
i feel so free! so free to study! just want to complete that assignment which is due when i return to school.
i cant wait for friday, then mr tui and i can watch movies and munch on yummy popcorns and sip on fizzy groovy grape juice! haha yeah its really gonna turn me so fat. havent been exercising since who knows when.. -_- i feel like a PIG, a cute one atleast. haha oh well, cant believe im going to stay at home and thats it...
why must baby's training be today!! why must i have my break today?! WHY!!! not fair.
i want things to get better! i will make them better! its all up to me! =D
ahh enough crapping and get back to work claire! (my attention has been diverting around other than on my work since morning. really frustrating!)

LIL'BIG sister CLAIRE the hobbit.. >.<"

psalm 27:4

BIG LIL'brother
BIGGER BIG'brother
lizzieWONG
anonymous
GOD
FAMILY
YOU
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