you always break your promises
u never seem to keep them
you dont even care how much it hurts

you only treat me nice when i could treat you gifts.
when im down, u cast me aside, you ignore me no matter how hard i try to stand out.
19 years......ive been tolerating your mean remarks.
everyone wants to stay being a kid but i just cant wait to grow up and leave this wrecked home of yours for i know that i will be a like a bird who has been freed after many long years of being locked up in a cage.

im working now. im glad i have as i dont have to depend on your stinking money. and your rotting mouth telling me i owe you when i grow up.
bear this in mind that that when i have settled down and stabilised, i will pay you what i owe you and THATS IT.
dont expect me to keep my promise for anything else cos u did the same to me..
i hate you.. i always will.







cold cold world
im alone even though surrounded by many people
i trust no one.
not even you.

yesterday was a extremely busy day for me, so much so that i hardly had time to text mr tui. i know i know , im such a bag girlfriend,unable to make time for my boy. =( but money and work are equally important. Moreover junbin is in camp, i rather do something then bored to death.
i woke up at 7 to go work. work work work and MORE work. work only ended at 7 30pm. =( but it was okay! cos it was PAY DAY! =D
i have ordered a burberry blue label bag and have got someone to arrange it to be shipped over from japan for me. =) i will most probably get my bag next week if everything goes smoothly. i am so excited!!! =D
hmm, however one bag is not quite enough. so im deciding to get more next month! =D maybe i will get Saleya GM from Louis Vuitton.
oh i am feeling so satisfied with myself. =) yay! i am finally getting independent! no more a little girl, although i still am to Mr tui. =)
oh the blouse and skirt Mr Tui bought for me have arrived! it was awesome! and i love it! i am going to save that outfit for next tues when we meet. =)
i wonder what are we gonna do next tuesday, watch movie? have dinner? Shopping? or window shopping? hmmm i wouldnt mind going to the movies or have dinner, but shopping would be quite selfish of me cos whenever i shop, Mr tui will tag behind me, not a complain of "boredom" although i can tell he is and it makes me feel very guilty so i would rather shop alone which i enjoy or shop with mom! =D

i havent gone to ballet for 2 weeks! oh i feel so lazy and FAT. >.<"
cant wait to return to ballet tonight. if only it was early in the morning or sth rather than NIGHT where people are usually chilling out at home getting ready to face monday blues the next day. -_- oh well.

todays going to be a boring day cos i dont exactly have plans. my only plans are work.. which there are none today. i think today will be the DAY where i will die of boredom! oh wait! i still have markings to do! i wont be that bored after all!

you are my one and only.

i was having a bad day atfirst. i was late for work, had a tummyache suddenly on the way to work and when i got home, i found my crab lying in the water, motionless. =( i thought it will live for a long time. oh well, i felt so guilty when i flushed it down the toilet bowl.. Well how else can i get rid of it besides returning it to the "water"?
well anyway, junbin said he couldnt meet me cos of dragonboat training. =( i was feeling worst. he promised to spend time with me afte FYP, but due to UNFORSEEN circumstances, we had to call off our date. damn. moreover i have cancelled my evening lesson just to spend time with him. =(

my luck "U"-turned when junbin called me up in the evening saying he was going to look for me at my place! "yayy! hes gonna get hell from me!" i thought to myself. but i was so overwhelmed by the thought that he was Coming to look for me that i forgot the about grudge i was bearing against him for not having spend much time with me. we spent the evening at my place, watching disney cartoons. =) it was fun and the hilarious cartoons never fail to liven up the climate in the room. =) i enjoyed myself thoroughly eventhough it was barely 2 hours. =) i made used of every minute and second to enjoy his company, snuggling beside him. =)
sometimes i wish such moments never end, but you know, everything has to come to an end. =( oh well. but im sure our relationship will stay strong to withstand all the storms just like the strong trees in Hundred Acre Wood, rooted firmly to the ground to withstand blizzards and scorchy dry seasons. =)


We will last my dear, i know we will. =)
The chapter has only just begun =) i love you, Mr tui (2nd junior)

bought these chocolates today! yummy i love the design of the boxes. =)
YAYY! ive got my 2 floral printed skirts and hight waisted dress!! oh oh not forgetting my belt! =) finally.... the two days of waiting seemed like forever/. =(
im glad its with me now, all in one piece! haha singapore post never fails to let me smile. =)

today was rather busy. working and shopping during my spare time. i spent quite a lot at popular today. lol stacks of files, books etc.
ive recently bought a story book," a friend like henry." its about a boy with autism who refused to open his little bubble and communicate with the rest of the world.
i havent exactly started reading yet. =)

anyways, i forgot to add in ytds blog the chocs jb bought me. sweet! =)




and i just realized that it is not in my comp. but i did accept it from dion!!!
ahh stupid laptop, so screwed up. i wanna buy a new lappy already! hmph! >:(

today was fun! the children were in good mood and so was i! =)
then junbin gave me a pleasant surprise by popping at my doorstep.
how comforting to see him waiting at my door after a long days work. oh i love my baby junbin booboochacha! =)

he bought me two type of chocolate which contained alcohol. it was my first time and it taste great. i prefer the rhum to Jack Daniels though. =)

dion and mom tried it and they all love it!

then i was browsing through some clothes online, i saw a high waisted and a silver sleeveless blouse. i fell in love with it at first sight, or so.
anyways, junbin just said," get it lor." As usual i used my dole eyed expression on him with a really convincing smile across my face. and YES! he said he would buy it for me and he did! =) my bf just bought me clothes and chocolates! so happy! so many things in a day! haha

on top of it all, im still waiting for my other parcels to arrive, im so excited! yayy, what a happy day for me and junbin baby booboochacha!

its supposed to be a holiday but it doesnt seem like a holiday, however i still enjoyed myself. having my loved ones around to spend time with me. =)

ahh
so many things happened these few days. lets start with friday =)

after work, junbin came to my place. i wanted him to proceed straight to my house and not wait for me at the busstop cos i wasnt sure which bus i was taking.
i told my baby that i was gonna take the bus that alights on the other side which is pretty far from the one he was waiting at. i didnt expect him to go a long way to find me =) so sweet!
i was delighted to see him at the bus stop when i got off the bus. we made our way to the carpark and met my parents there. we hopped onto the car and made our way to chong pang steamboat BBQ! it used to be a Marina South. but has since relocated to Turf city along bukit timah road.
i thought it was gonna be REALLY crowded cos it was a friday. Surprisingly, we were one of the first few customers. =) it was already 7pm. i guess the rest were late. haha

junbin and i took chucks of meat to cook. the meat was delicious! especially satay mutton! yum yum. it was a sumptous meal and junbin treat my brothers and i to ice cream! hehe my sweet baby.

then on saturday, i met junbin at his place after work. he just took his shower when i reached, nice smelling!

we chilled for a bit while waiting for his dad to return home so we could go out for dinner.
we went to a famous Pigs Organs soups stall along Bendemeer road. this BIG shop only sells pigs organs soup / tofu /pigs trotters and other homemade specialties. you can imagine how successful they have become simply by selling simple food. however, i beg to differ their "simple" homecook food with other places as the taste of their specialty pigs organ soup will make you do a perfect triple pirouette even if you dont have any dance background . heavenly.
the meal was so good that i couldnt help thinking about losing weight later while i enjoyed the food first.

after dinner, junbin's parents drove me home. =) i feel guilty for wasting their petrol though. =/

on Sunday, i woke up at 7 in the morning to get ready for church. i set my alarm clock at 6 am the night before becos i had to run some errands before i went to church. i had to rush my bath, breakfast, make up(still perfect!) and off i went to the market. i needed to go to the bank to transfer some money for the things ive purchased online and i was so worried that it will be filled with the blangadesh workers who would go to the ATM machine and would take forever to get their stuff done and then i would have to wait FOREVER, moreover i was running LATE or so i supposed. thankfully time was on my side, the booth was empty =) i got to enjoy the air-con as well as the peace in the surroundings( usually lotsa ppl will be queueing and there would be lotsa chattering of all different langauges, and it usually gets louder(voice levels gradually rises when more ppl are talking because they cant hear each other due to the background chatters of others. =/)
finally, got everything transferred and i reached home just in time as they were getting ready to leave the house. =)

sunday was a busy day. i had to work as well =(. poor me.



i was bored while teaching. >.<

after so long, today was the FIRST monday where i experience monday BLUES. -_-
plus, i had a freaking headache which made working a torture, although teaching has always been my passion. =( the headache still hasnt gone down yet. i can still feel it throbbing in my head. Thumping so hard that it feels as if a particular blood vessel in my brain is gonna burst. eww...well, of cos the blood wont squirt out of my skull. i'll just suffer complications in my brain and slip into a coma which also means that i might be a vegetable for the rest of my life. =( CHOY! thats not gonna happen to me.. no way! ive got so many things to achieve! i wanna get married and start a family and i wanna be a successful multi tasker mummy! i wanna see my children grow up and be successful just like me in future. oh my, i think too far already. lol

Anyway, after the dreadful lesson with a student, i finally got time to break. i met mummy at westmall because dion needed to get a comb.

headed down to Wisma Atria. Mummy bought a pair of pumps for herself. and i was basically window shopping. nothing caught my attention.

then we went to the louis vuitton boutique. that was when i experienced a change in my mood, gloomy to bright and sparkly! haha i was so overwhelmed with the many bag designs! Trevi GM caught my eye.

Description
- Damier canvas, smooth leather trimmings and red microfiber lining
- Golden brass pieces
- Zippered closure
- Internal patch pocket and cell phone compartment
- Hand-held or carried on the shoulder
- Rounded leather handles
- Adjustable and removable leather strap
- Base studs for extra protection

it really suits my personality! ha!
its affordable too! Atleast to me. =) im gonna get it next mth or so.
haha cant wait!

mummy is getting hamstead MM, she doesnt like it too big. =)

im dreaming about it again.. ahh....

good night!

Its lantern festival today!!!
any idea how this day came about? nah but i shall find out, sometime. =)

did nth much happened today. it was pretty much the only day where i can sleep through the morning which i did not unfortunately, due to my body clock which wakes up 7 30am every morning. i did nth except for staring at computer screen for hours, trying to make up my mind on which bag i should get. i spent the whole morning and afternoon staring at the designs of the bags, still unable to finalize my choice. argh so frustrating!
im not sure if i should get a gucci bag, LV damier saleyaGM / treviGM or the burberry blue label.



leen says burberry blue label should get from japan directly cos its cheaper. however im not sure if they are willing to get it for me. =/ so i shall not put too much hopes on that.
i have always loved the design of damier canvas trevi GM. its really unique to me, and its not too common compared to the monogram canvas neverfull bag.
saleya is a simple design where u can dump all your brolly, waterbottle etc. thats why the price of saleya is cheaper than trevi.
next is gucci, i like that design because it is big and convenient for me to chuck my stuff in my bag when im in a hurry.

im confused!
maybe i should take a little more time deciding. =)

we went to church in the evening then proceeded to dinner near my place. i had pigs organ soup. it was pathetic. hardly any intestine and so much soup. the standard of the soup has dropped tremendously compared to the past. oh well. food back in the old days taste much better because tht was the only skill they had and jobs were not as available back then unlike today. i wish i could travel back in time and enjoy all the mouth watering delicacies, then return to my own time when im done with it. haha

today was really busy, well only from the start of the afternoon actually.
i skipped breakfast today. pizza early in the morning.... ewww. the oily and partially burnt dough covered with dried up mozzarella cheese made me lose my appetite all the way until lunch time and i only managed to munch on some digestive biscuits which werent that yummy today, i wonder why. Maybe my tastebuds have gone haywire today.

anyway, in the afternoon i helped this little boy make his lantern. the instructions on the stupid paper were so unclear. it was just a black and white piece of paper,however the instructions given mentioned about blue and yellow markings of the outline of the lantern. -_-' i had to crack my brains and solve the missing instructions myself, although it was that boy's work. he just sat beside me and started doing his usual "talking to himself". it was frustrating trying to cut out the vanguard sheet to form a design,but the outcome was rewarding and i was proud it although it was not totally finished yet.
i pasted some cellophane paper on to the design to make it look more like a lantern. it was so pretty that the little boy could stop trying to amuse himself with other things and admire the lantern. he said, "wah teacher, is that lantern mine? so nice! hurry up do okay?" -_-" ungrateful brat, but i dont hold it against him cos sometimes he doesnt know how to express or relate to others, resulting in him accidentally offending people, especially teachers in school. poor kiddo.
Anyway, the lantern was done in less than 3 hours! =D i was so proud of it and so was he! he was really happy with the lantern and thanked me sincerely( you can tell if someone is meaning it or faking it right.) i was so touched. Atleast he appreciated what i have done and my efforts were not wasted. i felt so satisfied. =)


in the evening we went to church. After church was BALLET! its been so long since i took a break from ballet in the beginning of the year. i was so excited yet paranoid. what if im unable to do double pirouettes like before? what if they say i put on weight(i havent been exercising eversince i stopped ballet)
thankfully everything went well in ballet class.it was quite relaxing. Ms Elaine taught us a bit of pilates to help us strengthen our muscles. the lesson passed really quickly. Although the lesson was 1.5 hr, it felt like only 0.5 hr have passed. haha it has been a long time since i last enjoyed my ballet lessons. =)
im feeling happy now!

I'm in the library now and wondering if I'm meeting junbin at np. I'm not sure if I will
be able to make it though :/ cos church is at 5pm! I usually go to the 9am mass on Sundays. But today is different, too tired to explain the whole thing. Okay I think I'm gonna be late for teaching! Cya!

its been forever since i last blogged.

i was busy with work and work and more work for the past few months, hence was unable to find time for my blog.

the past few months were really crazy. All my work schedules, attachments, classes came at one go..
it was tiring, especially the attachment! having to start work at 7 30 am every morning. what a killer. The practicum supervision as well as the video presentation was nerve wrecking. i had so much to remember, and the worst part was bits of the information in memory kept slipping away. therefore i tend to be scrambling all over place most of the time.

finally i have graduated! i have only 1 month or 2 left before i start with my degree..
oh i cant wait!!! and soon i will graduate from my degree and move on to a masters or sth. =D oh i cant wait to grow up!! oh yes im daydreaming right now.. =)

okay thats enough of dreaming. lets talk about yesterday. As usual, i went teaching although its not as stressful because its the holidays and families are overseas. yayy! so happy that ive got time for my little boy. =)

i went home at 4pm and junbin came to my place for dinner at 6 30pm when he promised to reach at 5 30 or earlier. but it was a small matter. =)
we had fried rice for dinner and junbin ate most of my share because i didnt have much appetite then. i only managed to force myself a few spoonfuls of rice and that was it for dinner.
after dinner, we chat a bit and did some brain cracking crossword puzzles. junbin kept irritating me from the side and i had a huge difficulty in concentrating.-_-
we stopped solving the puzzles as it was hard to concentrate with the tickles we were giving each other.
we both chatted for a while more and before i knew it, junbin was snoring. -_-
that little boy always knocks out halfway! but i cant blame him, hes had a long tiring week, all the trainings and school. poor baby.
well poor me too! i have to wait for another 3 more weeks before we can finally go out as he is busy with his final year project. =/ oh well im counting down and the day seems to be taking forever to come. i think i shall not think about it and get busy with other things. =) i hope that will help!

oh oh mooncake festival is almost here! i cant wait to celebrate, carrying lanterns and enjoying the delicious mouth watering snowskin durian mooncakes from Goodwood Park and sipping Oolong tea. yummy! my tummy is already rumbling at the thought of it. hopefully my baby will be able to celebrate it with me. =)

LIL'BIG sister CLAIRE the hobbit.. >.<"

psalm 27:4

BIG LIL'brother
BIGGER BIG'brother
lizzieWONG
anonymous
GOD
FAMILY
YOU
MYSELF
BALLET

April 2007
May 2007
July 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
June 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008