Friday, December 21, 2007
@8:26 AM
so much happened today, shall just summarize it cos im really exhausted after editting my blog layout.
firstly, i woke up unhappy cos junbin knocked out on me last night again..=( oh wells, i guess i cant blame him totally cos he gymmed a lot yesterday.
then i was even upset when he spoke to me in that manner and i slammed the phone back..
however, mom overheard(cos she was sitting beside me) and gave me a good long lecture.. -_-
not feeling very happy but also guilty at the same time, i decided to call junbin to apologise..
i was pretend for THAT tone of his though.
then my heart softened when i heard he quarrelled with his mom. =(
i also sent him a msg to cheer him up..
but, he sent me a reply to shoo me away.. =(
i was shocked and very upset when i saw the msg.
throughout the day, i was really gloomy although a part of me still worried for junbin. =/ despite him being so mean in the msg.
For countless times, i had the urge to send him a msg or two to cheer him up or apologise but i thought to myself that maybe it was better not to send since he wanted to be alone.
i tried to forget about the whole incident by helping mom to iron all the clothes...
but it didnt quite take my mind off the whole matter, as the whole matter kept coming back into my mind like a colony of ants invading a nest. -_-
around 4pm, he msged me..
at that time,i was thinking,"how could he hurt me so much and yet still able move on so quickly."
i was furious.
so i didnt reply his msg until 7pm as i was way too worried about him.
after many calls and smses...he finally called back to say that he was sleeping all along..(make me worry for nothing -_-)
we apologise and made up, its all fine now..
=)
im glad it is, cos the whole day of not contacting him was living hell.. =(
junbin if you're reading this, i just wanna tell you how much i love you. and i will not this happen again... but still, no matter what problems you have, i really hope that you will share it with me like how i did with you. =)
oh i so cant wait for christmas eve!!! =D
