today was fun...i guess? kids were like little monsters as usual....CUTE little monsters to be precise..
they look so innocent, but are SO NOT! *faints*
whenever i wanna punish them, they will, for sure give me that stupid innocent face....hoping i'll give them a lighter sentence....-_- NO SUCH THING! hahahahahahah! *i feel evil*
cute or not, still have to get scolded by me...the biggest monster! hahaa
"i feel VERY evil"

okay enough of tt evil thing....lol

i was in a happy mood today so i didnt really scold the naughty ones...
i gave all of them sweets and marshmallows some more k! =D

i just love to see them smiling! so sweet!! =D
today was really easy, no need to sing songs , just PLAY! =D
i drew a flower for jiayi, my favourite little girl and gave her a yellow "winnie the pooh" water bottle as well...=) shes really pretty! haha =)

i guess i'll miss the cute monsters! =(
however, i cant wait to get back to studying...=)


throughout the day i just kept thinking of someone.
oh well, i cant help it..=/
as the end of the day drew closer, i was so eager to get home.
however, some sickening mother was 10-15minutes late to pick up her son...ARGH...
its not like she rushed from work cos she was wearing home clothes and she looked totally sloppy...
-_-
guess what her excuse for being late was...
"oh sorry ah! outside heavy rain thats why late. aiyo the rain very heavy ar! "
it wasnt raining at all at that time, mind you.
i mean, want to lie also dont know...wah lau
even i, who totally suck at lying can lie better than her! MUCH better i mean...-_-
ahh heck la...typical parents....

and the day ends here....=)

ive been getting stupid comments like, "omg claire! you're so skinny now!!! you are anorexic! "
, "aiyo you so skinny! been starving huh?' or "claire arh! you work too hard already larh! stop starving! you look so pale/haggard/dull/ETC." or "claire, DONT LIE! i know ur anorexic! SAY!!"
[-____-"]...for the LAST TIME, im NOT ANOREXIC!!!!!!!, i think..=/

anyway, im just on a diet, how i lose has nothing to do with you ALL.
so please, let me be...

"anorexic/bulimic" are not nice words to be randomly thrown at others..
its pretty hurtful you know...=(

















*"you are special to me"
are these words too much to take?
pls dont avoid it
cos' that hurts a ton or two.

time will tell yeah? hope it will. =/



it all dont matter anymore......

You're beautiful but you don't know. Can't see what's there inside your soul. Always feelin like you're not good enough. You wish you could be someone else. Sometimes you just can't see yourself. But I can see just who you are, who you are....


You never you think you measure up. Never smart or cool, or pretty enough. Always feeling different from all the rest. You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in. I think you're perfect in the skin you're in. You're just perfect just how you are, just how you are.


If you could see the one I see when I see you. You'd know how lucky you are to be you. I see through into you, and you are exceptional....


You're exceptional the way you are. Don't need to change for nobody. You're incredible, anyone can see that. When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional.....

i choose not to believe.

its been eons since ive lost weight.
you didnt say anything about me losing weight the last time, however you even criticised me whenever i had supper...
well i have to thank you for that..
its because of YOU and your freaking hurtful comments that made me so determined to show how much weight i can lose and my plan is actually EFFECTIVE, not USELESS....


regretting what you said before?
all i can say is, forget it...
i didnt lose weight for you anyway...
i lost weight for myself..to look good..or even BETTER.


i dont care about anything else now..
say what you want..
cry buckets...
and i just wont care anymore...

ive been treated like that anyway....



even if i were to die, atleast i know that i died being slim...which was what i always wanted....

so, no regrets for me anymore...



seriously, save ur tears.......
no point quarrelling with me over my weight if ur not gonna talk nicely...you dont own the world you know..
you should know that when i set my heart and mind into doing something, i'll do it all the way until i get the result.




oh wells, its just a little too late now....and i aint gonna change for you

no mood to blog....


=(









feels as if..things have changed..






good bye the "old FAT claire"! >.<




well they certainly have.

9am, i woke up soon after i knocked my head against the study table beside..LOL ouch! =(
my day didnt went quite well throughout the day.
i quarrelled with dion over a stupid comp..=/ well i thought he had to finish his homework and moreover he woke up earlier than me just to play games! -_-
was just helping mummy to remind him to study..but i got fired back instead. HMPH!!! i was so angry!
not only that, mom went to throw away ALL my water bottles...omg..then what i use for ballet!? wth...hmphh.
went for ballet after that...
ballet was neutral...got a bit of scolding =(

after ballet,
i msged gerald to tell him how screwed up my day was. ='( so wanted to cry too!
well gerald obviously tried his best to cheer me up
he replied with something which was totally lame and didnt make sense at all..haha aiya
its gerald man, cant do anything about it, can you? haha =P
but he did cheer me up after all..i felt much better after that. haha yeah
thanks sotong no.2!!! haha we are linked! thats why we understand each other in sotong language. right kor kor? =P

oh i forgot! today gerald so nice! never suan me...LOL
suaning me is like your daily dosage of vitamin. you must be feeling very weak today. oops
you can suan me later..just give me more space to suan you back! =P

alright! thats all for now...blog later!




p.s. : i love EATING sotong! dont you? =)

today was the busiest day EVER!

woke up at around 9 am
i got dressed and went out wth parents to first, pay for the yakult. second, buy paper plates etc. third, go fetch dion to tuition! lol

it was a REALLY BUSY day.
hardly any break...

[im too tired to blog about everything, will just summarise it]

the party was okay =/
lil'bro and i didnt know anyone and therefore we only had each other or our handphones for company. [thank you so much gerald! for keeping me company! was really so bored that i could kick a cow. =P..oops]

felt so weird with so many guys and so little girls. OBVIOUSLY i only talked to the GIRLS..well not all, just some from poly.=) they're really nice ppl..and omg, they can cook....-_- although their only 19 years old..damn..i feel like a boy...i cant cook well, dont really do housework, and that explains why my room is forever in a mess. =S
i should have been a bung.LOL .like which guy would want a girl like ME?! =/
oh wells i can always LEARN! =D which i doubt i will. haha.
ahhhh!!!
so exhausted after the BBQ =( gonna sleep now! tata! =D

work was a bit boring and frustrating cos the playgroup and nursery 1 kids are SO HYPERACTIVE!!! -_-

SO TIRED AFTER WORK!!!!!!!

so glad im finally home.talking to gerald..more like hes busy SUAN-ing me....lol..
but fret not! he will leave some space for me to suan him back..so nice hor?


stupid gerald! next time give me more space to suan you la! not enough u know!


haha
i love ALL MY friends!

my date with tings and liz was really fun!
after so long, we finally met up and update each other on stuff, well its more like they update me cause im as if a tortoise living high up in the mountains, everything oso dont know and dont bother to find out too..haha, so usually i'll simply get all the updates on "kaypo" news from them..haha =P
anyway, we went to toastbox first. it wasnt crowded (11 am) =), we spent quite a lot of time talking as we munched on our toasts and sipped our coffee or tea(i know its rude to talk during meals, but we cant help it! not seeing each other for so long is enough to drive us crazy.talking less would be worst).it was really fun. after so long, tings and liz still havent changed a bit which is good news..=) i like the way they are..funny people who always cheer me up.=D
we were so engrossed in chatting, we didnt notice tt we were actually running out of time as we had other things to do ahead of us. liz wanted to get her green apple bubble tea from taka, we headed to taka after brunch.

at taka, we realized tt there was nth interesting to look at so i suggested to go raffles city's guess to change my handbag which has slight defects. =)

the people at guess seemed so unfriendly.even when walking into the shop, i could feel a sense of hostility, figures in white scrutinising my dressing as i took every step forward. still, i had to have my bag changed by hook or by crook .
finally! i changed my bag although they didnt look very pleasant(as usual) when i asked for a change...but who cares! its my bag thats more important! lol

the time for me to go to work was nearing, so we decided to sit at burger king to continue the chat.
well, all we had on our table was ting's pathetic regular ice lemon tea and we sat there for nearly an hour. its natural for people to give us weird looks...lol so MALU!! haha


then it was time for me to go =( hate saying goodbyes but had no choice if i wanna keep my job..
as i went off, i kept thinking of the present tings gave me..how thoughtful was she. moreover my birthday was long over and she still kept it together with the card, waiting for the day to pass it to me....how sweet. thanks so much tings! ur the bestest bestie! we'll never lost contact with each other and thats promise between us! =)


cant wait to go out with u all again! =D

finally im starting afresh!
lifes great so far..
really happy..

not only do i have freedom, i also felt as if there was a huge load of worry of my mind..
i could shop like crazy without worrying about spending too much...=D
for the past week, i bought clothes from MANGO,bugis.etc and wallet from GUESS..
shoes as well!
and just today. i bought a handbag from GUESS! i didnt even have to think twice.haha!
i feel so FREE!!!!!

I LOVE MY LIFE AND NO ONE IS GONNA CHANGE THAT! NO ONE AT ALL!!

I LOVE GOD TOO!
thank you lord for guiding me through! praise the lord!!!

LIL'BIG sister CLAIRE the hobbit.. >.<"

psalm 27:4

BIG LIL'brother
BIGGER BIG'brother
lizzieWONG
anonymous
GOD
FAMILY
YOU
MYSELF
BALLET

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